A long tight thin dress(the grope fantasy kind) nylons a black bra and matching panties. He picked out the kind of clothes that drove me wild when I was with my wife. He pulled out a few boxes of women's clothes and kink outfits I of course gave in. he had gay porn on and asked if i would dress up cute for him. I'm tall and slim nerdy and with few muscles and he was built like a brick house short thick and he had muscles. when he got me to his house he made me lots of sweet cherry alcohol drinks(hard stuff too) and then gave me something called a popper to sniff i've never heard of that or since but the whole night was disorienting. I had smoked a huge 2gm joint before he picked me up. but he scared the living out of me because i don't get lost easily and I was really lost. it was a long drive(longer than he said it would be) maybe 40 min I was so scared. he took me to his house after finding me online. The fifth guy(50's) was big bristly fat but scary strong and gray. he was nice enough but he left me dripping cum and blood so I never saw him after that. The fourth guy(20's) was a random thing and had a huge piercing on his junk that made me bleed he came in my ass because he ripped the condom. Maybe pot but I think must have been stronger cause he kinda flipped out. There was another guy(30's) but he didn't like me and got super paranoid after he smoked something. I then found another guy(Teen) but i was scared after that first guy and just sucked him off till he came in my mouth. he usually talked awful like that but it got worse and worse and when he wanted me to give it up to his dog i didn't let him come back. I finally cut him off when he started calling me his bitch and he was gonna breed me like a bitch in heat. sometimes he'd make me cry and he'd muffle my mouth or force me to suck on his fingers. he preferred to take me doggy though a couple of times he spoon fucked me pinning me down my legs hooked immobile in his, my arms pinned and his hand on my throat. i just finally gave in and let him tell me what to do. i tried to get him to use my mouth but he'd use it to get hard then he'd flip me around and slide in like i was property. he wanted to be my daddy and i had to be his little girl. He kept fucking me for about 4-5 months 2-3 times a week sometimes less. I kinda felt good that i made him feel good but also like i was just raped because he didn't stop when he should of. he started chatting saying how good and nice i was as he started fingering my wet hole. i just layed there cum dripping from my butt hole. he started saying be a good girl and take it. I started struggling and trying to push him off but he just held me down Ive never been very strong. I could feel him building up to orgasm as he said i'm going to breed yu. I was scared I felt raped and dirty and violated. he pushed my face down into the bed hard so to keep me from resisting. he kept at it for a few minutes then said the condom was probably making it hurt more and took it off and slid back into me before i could reply. he slid it in and fucked me telling i was such a good boy. then he licked my butt some more and spit n it. he said he had a rubber and made me slide it onto him with my mouth. i tried to tell him not to because I afraid of catching something. I started apologizing but he said I was clean and he liked how I tasted.
he started by pulling me to my bed told me to set up doggy style he pulled down my shorts and licked my hole. he eventually got me to give up my anal cherry. The guy liked my quietness and submissiveness and said I was very cute. he finished on my face and said to be on my knees mouth open just like today next time he came over. he wasn't as long as me but he was thicker. he shoved a weak semi hard cock into my mouth and told me to suck him till he finished. heard him unzip as he asked i if had ever sucked on a dick before. the very first time he told me to get on my knees open my mouth and stick out my tongue. he told me to be in just a t-shirt and boxers when he arrived. the first couple of times were just oral. he'd come around 2-3 times during the week and use me. the first experience He was between 40-50 chubby stubbly and actually not handsome in anyway. there were four(almost 5) men and three girls and one much older woman I did things with. but for some reason I was absolutely willing to be truly abuesd. In particular I had my first same sex experience.
When my wife(19) left me(22) I was mentally broken and I let a lot of people use me.